(#90) Stolen Car, Shamanic Death & A Parallel Life

I knew something big was going to happen for me this year, but nothing could have prepared me for this.

In this episode, I’m opening up about the life-changing events that unfolded in July and the chaos that followed throughout August. I found myself navigating a shamanic death and a quantum leap after my car was stolen and destroyed in a fire. Later discovering I was experiencing a parallel life moment.

This is part 1 of a 3-part series. In parts 2 and 3, I’ll be inviting back Nikki Voxx and Kerrie White to share how they supported me through this pivotal time.

I honestly don’t know how I would have made it through without the mindset work, nervous system regulation, and energy healing I received. It was a rollercoaster, but also a time of deep transformation.

Let me know…How would you have navigated something like this? Have you ever been through a similar experience? I’d love to hear your story!

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Hello, hello, and welcome to Alchemy Mindset. I'm your host, Anna Hasty, business mindset coach for women and a sound healer. If you are ready to become the most aligned, magnetic, and confident business woman you are worthy and deserving of being, Then this show is for you. This is where I share everything from mindset, energy, and spirituality, and how to embody your future self in business and life. Sprinkle that with deeply relaxing sound healings and meditations, and you have the Alchemy Mindset podcast. Hit subscribe so you always get the latest episode. Now let's begin. Hello, hello, and welcome, welcome, welcome to this episode of Alchemy Mindset. I'm your host, Anna, and I'm currently just chilling out in my bed. I'm doing one of those whole, like, I don't know if you ever see it on Instagram of other business owners who do podcasts and sometimes they're just sitting in bed with their microphone and they're just, You know, riffing on whatever and I'm like, yeah, that's me today. I went to Pilates this morning and my legs are so sore. They're so like jelly. Oh my God. I'm going to feel it. And I just thought, you know what? I'd rather just relax and recline in my bed rather than try and sit at a desk to record this episode for you, which I will have to say is one of the most profound, most powerful, biggest upheavals of my life. But at the same time, something that I knew was coming and something that while I still had to navigate all the emotions and all the feelings and all the shifts within it, I knew that this was one of those pure examples of life happening for me and not to me. Now a lot of people think that life, like the shit things that happen in life, the bad things, the ups and the downs, life is coming at them and just. raining crap down on them all the time and that life is happening to them, that it's life's fault in some way, you know, but in actual fact, these things happen for us because, and for me in particular, it was for me to have an upgrade in who I am and from where I was to where I am now and to feel and have that energetic shift and up level. And also when these things do happen, and if there are an occurrence that happens over and over and over again, like for example, you may hear about people who just have the worst luck when it comes to relationships or buying cars or, uh, You know, money, anything, right? And it's just repetitive problem over and over and over again, even health, right? That isn't necessarily life happening to you. That's life happening for you. And there's a message within that. And the message is actually you. What is happening within you? What do you need to change? What do you need to shift? What is not serving you? What are you ignoring and not acknowledging? And what do you need to do about it? Okay. So this episode is titled like a shamanic death, a stolen car, and a new identity. I can't remember the exact title. I've given it, but basically That is what happened in August and I will say leading up to this whole entire event where my car was stolen and then written off, literally she was burnt to the ground, I kind of had this feeling something was going to happen. And this whole entire year, I've just felt this big internal identity shift and not an identity in terms of like, I'm going to rebirth myself, I'm going to call myself Sue and I'm going to be a completely new person and whatever. No, more as in. I'm up leveling myself and spirit is coming in to help me do that. And this up level is really important internal growth, personal growth that will have massive impact on my life, my family, my business, my world. And I think it also circulated around the fact that Francois and I are talking about doing IVF to welcoming baby number two and that Tuning into that soul at the start of the year, like I really started going, all right, I know we're going to do this process. I'm fairly and relatively confident it's going to be fine because Ava was a success. I don't see any reason why this wouldn't be. I know my body. It's a pretty much like a clockwork machine. It wouldn't let me down. And I just know that there is another baby going to come into our life. I know we're going to be a family of four. I know I'm meant to have two kids. So, like Ava, I had tuned into Ava's energy and her soul like well before, well before I met Francois. I knew her name back when I was like 22. Crazy. I always had this thought like, if I ever have a kid and if I ever had a girl, I'm going to call her Ava. And in that time, my mind was like, yeah, we're right, you're having a kid, you're going off traveling, you're going to have adventures, freedom, there is no way you're having a kid, right? That was me back then. And 20 years later, hello, I'm a mum to one child, I'll soon have another child. And even leading up to like everything Ava had been a really strong presence in my life and just in the background waiting for her mom to get her shit together. And even Ava in herself, I think she was waiting because she wanted me to go through IVF because she wanted the best body possible to come into this lifetime to do whatever it is that she has to do. And that's the way I see my journey through IVF. Anyway, so tuning into this soul at the start of the year, I'm like, I haven't actually sat down and tuned in a lot into this little soul. Like I don't know. Am I giving it justice? Am I giving it the love? Am I giving it the acknowledgement that we're ready to meet each other and blah, blah, blah. But I had this feeling that its presence was there, different to Ava's, a lot softer, but more heightened, if I could say like a very powerful energy, but a softer presence. But this energy was actually part of the shift and change that happened in July and August. And I just had this feeling that this was all part of me welcoming the soul in, and this soul was influencing this change and shift. And that's a beautiful thing. Our baby souls and spirits, while we might not know exactly who they are, and they're not in their physical form yet until they're actually coming through the birth canal. As spirits, they can help us. They can help us in so many ways. If we just welcome them in, let them in, you know, tune into them and things like that. Anyway, I'd also had this feeling, I'd been working with Tara in the social bolt on my marketing. And I remember messaging her at one stage going. I have this feeling that I'm shifting into this new business identity and she's the entrepreneur. It's like, I've had this name circulating around me or circling around me for a very long time, few years now. And there's an episode I recorded, I don't know, a few months ago about the entrepreneur and who she is and what she represents for me. I said to Taryn in a message, I think this is time for me to step into this. I really feel this energy is coming through and I can't explain it. I can't articulate it, but I know it's there and I know it's powerful and I know it's profound and I know it's going to shape my life. And this is something that I'm really feeling. So along with this connecting somewhat to this little soul, as well as this energy coming through to this business identity, I could just feel this shift and change within me. I could feel this like queenly, sovereign, divine feminine energy coming through. I felt like at times there was wings expanding out from behind me. There was times I'd get into my car after I'd done some exercise or had been somewhere and I just have this overwhelming feeling of I'm shifting, I'm changing, I'm leaving something behind to welcome in something new. And you may have remembered a couple of stories I'd done on Instagram about that. But I knew I also had to wait for the moment that everything kind of, I guess, came together and finalized. So, July was the month that we decided to go do IVF, and the window was right during the school holidays. We had tried in May, but it turned out that I had a cyst in my uterus, and we just had to wait for that to clear. I did a detox with my naturopath and that literally flashed everything out. So test results came back positive, that everything was clear. And July was the green light. Dodged COVID because of course Francois came down with COVID. So I'm like, Oh great. Dodged that. And then headed down to Perth for a week, just on my own. We had an argument as to whether we take the whole family down. But I realized as much as that would be nice for Francois to be there while they do the implant of the embryo, the transfer, at the same time it was just impractical cost wise and timing and all that kind of stuff. So I went down by myself and had, you know, relatively a chill week for myself, which was great. Everything went like smoothly, went like clockwork. It was actually, I sat in the same chair in the waiting room they assigned me to that I was there for Ava, had my same doctor again, which was amazing. And everything just happened exactly the same, like exactly the same. Like when I saw with Ava's transfer and this baby, it's like, you can see it on the screen, how it all gets done. And it's just like the embryo is just transferred through like a syringe, almost like a catheter and like, it's a little ultrasound that they do at the same time. So you can see it going in there. It's like, bam, the light is on, the shooting star is there. And I knew we were good to go. So. Came back and then obviously we had to wait the few weeks for the blood test results to confirm that we're pregnant. They advised us not to do a pregnancy test because the amount of drugs that I'm still taking to support this transfer can influence and mask a false positive. So, July 25th, get the telephone call, Congratulations! You're pregnant! And then she said, We were so excited for you because we saw your history and we realized this is your last one. You only had two. Congratulations! This is amazing. And then she said, Did you know you were pregnant? And I said, Yeah. I said, My body has just responded so well to all of this. Like, my tummy's already sticking out. I can already feel the similar sensations. The nausea has just kicked in. Hello, nausea. So I knew that we were good to go. So that was July 25th on a Thursday. That was also the same morning I took my car in for a service. Now, my four wheel drive had been a huge representation of my time in life here in Broome. She was probably something I celebrated so much. I loved, I took care of her. She was my pride and joy. My car was called Ginger because her license plate was 1GIG. So Ginger was like a cool name and I thought you are a ginger because you're sassy, you're adventurous, you're fun loving, you love getting out there. And I tell you what, the adventures and the places I've been with that car, it was just incredible. When I bought her, I knew straight away that that was my car. Funnily enough. So this is the thing. It was a Toyota Prado, a white one, very generic to all the other Prados around town, except for I had been seeing a car Around town. That was one GIG five, three, two driving around town. And I kind of was like looking for a car like that. It was also a Prado same year, same model. So when I went to see this car, I was like, Oh my God, this is the car I've seen around town because for me, I always memorize license plates. It's a game I love playing for myself. I love making words out of license plate letters and things like that. So I'd already seen GIG five, three, two. Oh, I'd seen the GIG on a white Prado. So I assumed it was the same one, but the guy was like, no, we've just changed the plates. Little did I know my car was 531 and the other one I'd seen around town was 532. So Ginger had a sister driving around town and that car still exists. And they were very similar, like similar kind of roof racks, similar kind of light bar, bull bar, all the works. I was like, they do look so similar except for a few differences. Anyway, um, When I saw that car, I was like, this is my car. I know it 100%. It's my car. The guy was like the second owner. He loved it, took great pride and care in it, had done lots of upgrades that I was looking for. And I just knew that she was the symbolization of everything I wanted in Broome. Adventure, fun, travel, freedom. being out in the outdoors, like camping, four wheel driving. And when I sat in her, I felt so fucking good. Like she just felt amazing. And I just loved her. I took great care with her, serviced her all the time, gave her baths, you know, made sure she was clean, all the things, right. I took great care of her anyway. She had reached 300, 000 in her kilometers. I know it sounds a lot for a car, but in Toyota Prado years, that's quite average. And so she was going in for a big service. So that was expected. And yeah, then on Sunday night, the 28th of July, it all unfolded or Sunday morning, I should say. So Saturday night, Sunday morning, Saturday night, I remember I was the last one going to bed. I was up on my laptop, pissing about doing whatever. Francois had already gone to sleep and he was actually sleeping with Ava. And I was the last to go to bed. I remember going to bed around 11 and I always check the doors. I always make sure they're locked. And I specifically remember because it was still quite cool at this time of the year and Ava's room seems to get a bit cold and drafty before our bedroom. So I remember pulling, I believed I had locked the back sliding door, which is a screen door. That one is always locked. It's like a crim safe type one. So I'd never had any worries about anybody trying to get in, but always locked it. And this time I pulled across the glass sliding door because I thought I don't want it to be too cold in the house. I usually like to leave the door, the glass door open so that there's fresh air coming into the house. Cause I hate waking up to a stuffy, hot, stagnant house. I like fresh air coming in overnight. But I thought, no, I'm going to shut it. And then maybe I'm just going to leave it a jar open so that there is some air still coming through, but it's not going to make Ava's room too cold. And I stopped and I hesitated and part of me said, lock it, pull it all the way shut and lock it. And another part of me just went, no. So I left it a jar. Believed that I had locked the security door earlier in the night, actually. So I didn't even think to double check cause I thought, no, I already locked that earlier. So it should be fine. And I don't believe Francois had gone out there again. So why would that be open? Went to bed, slept really soundly. And then at 5. 30am, Sunday the 28th of July, Bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, on the front door. And I'm like, shit, what's that? Looked at my, I thought, it's France Ray outside. What is it, 5. 30am? I'm like, it's not unusual for us to be awake at 30 in this house. And I was like, that doesn't sound right. So then I got up and saw lights, like torch lights. And the police coming around the back of the house. And they said, Oh, hello. It's the police. I'm like, Oh yeah. And they said, Oh, just be careful. This door's open. I'm like, Oh fuck. And then they said, are you the owner of a white Toyota Prado license plate number? Blah, blah, blah. Yes. It's been stolen. And then it was burnt in the bush down the road. And I'm like, great. And at the time when they said that, I was like, what, man, like you're kidding me. And I went to look at the front door and it was still locked. They said, yeah, your front door's locked, but obviously they've come through the back. And I'm like, oh man. And I could see my car wasn't where I'd left it. Now here's the thing. I believe this was in this reality and this timeline, and I'm going to get to this a little bit later. It was just opportunistic. Unfortunately, this stuff happens here in Broome. It's not unusual for cars, bikes, scooters, whatever, to go missing and end up. Somewhere else and often burnt to a crisp. It's what kids like to do around here. It's just unfortunate. It's almost, you could say a way of life. And from that, we do have to be very security conscious. It would be nice to just leave doors and windows and cars and everything open. And I just believe that at that moment in time, I was like, it's just opportunistic. Like. They just targeted our house. Cause obviously it's a car, it's an auto, it's not a manual. So they're not even going to pinch or steal my husband's manual ute, which is a bit of a bomb. It's falling apart. Like it's, it's probably saying it's day. Anyway, my car's an auto. They know how to get into these cars. You just need the key, et cetera, et cetera. It's nothing too difficult. We don't have a dog, so we don't have a dog alarm. So that wouldn't have like set any sort of warning off either. And. Yeah, they just tried their luck and they got lucky. This had never happened to me before. So in some ways I felt like, Oh, great. Brooms finally caught up with me. This side of broom that I deliberately and strongly excuse myself from. Like I don't get involved in a lot of conversations around this because I don't like to generate the fear and anxiety and worries about it has finally caught up with me. Great. Lost my car. Fuck. That's our only family car. Like this is an inconvenience. Not just for like, because it's a car and we don't have it, but it's our only family car that is suitable to put Ava in to get us around town. And I was just like, man, okay. All right. Whatever. Let's Do a statement. So they'd obviously come in, tried the back door. It was unlocked. They've gone in, they've found the keys, which I have to say, we weren't very like security conscious about. They were just hanging up in this little macrame bag on a hook, but near sort of the front door. And at times I thought we'd probably better be a bit more security conscious about this, but had never had any problems. Had never had any worries about this. And I'd always believe that if like, I just had faith that our house was protected and I just had faith that our items were protected because, this is what I wanted to say, the number of times I've left my car unlocked, a front door unlocked because I forgot to lock it when I was going out with Ava and I've come back and gone, oh that was unlocked. Cars unlocked. I've even left the keys stuck in the front door of the car overnight. Like how more helpful can you get? They didn't come around that night. No, they had to come around the night that I thought I had everything locked. So I was like, man, it's just opportunistic. Like they just hit, right. You know, they could have tried any other house and got lucky too. So bum. I at the time knew that this wasn't going to be great for my nervous system and that eventually I would probably, eventually. Stuff I'd go through grievance or I'd go through like all those feelings of sadness, loss, grief, all that kind of stuff. But for now it was just like, this is just a massive inconvenience on our lifeline. Thankfully my parents live in Broome, we can borrow their car if we have to, but car shuffling's a pain. It's insured, my car is insured, thank fuck, like I was insured. So now we just have to go through that whole process. Man. And I didn't also have this feeling of being intruded. Like people were like, Oh, but they've intruded in your house. And that feels like, and I'm like, yeah, but I don't feel violated in that way. Like I don't feel like, yes, they came in, but they came in and left. They came in and they left. They didn't go anywhere. I don't believe they went anywhere else in the house. They just went in and out and that was it. And I'm glad that Francois was sleeping with Ava and I was on my own, but that was okay. But they just went in and out. Like that's all they needed to do. So come Wednesday I'd messaged my mentor Nikki and I said to her, guess this is what's happened. I believe that this is a shamanic death. I believe this is part of my identity shift. I believe I'm going through a quantum leap. I believe this is happening for me for a reason. And she's like, babe, that fucking sucks that you've lost your car. But yes, this This is a massive shift within you and I'm going to help you get through this now I've recorded a whole episode coming up with Nikki talking about her side and how she helped me through her process of mindset and nervous system regulation and subconscious reprogramming because I tell you what it was it was I think aligned that I was working with Nikki at this moment in time. I'd had this thought of ages ago. I would really love to work with Nikki Vox this year and work on my mindset. Wasn't aligned at the start of the year, but July, I think is when I started working with her. I just knew it was the right time and bingo. It was because without her in my corner, I think I would have been a more disheveled mess. I would've got through everything eventually, but it would have been a harder, more triggering time than what it is now. Like for me to sit here and record this podcast feels so easy. Like, I don't have, and you'll hear this in the next episode, I don't have any feelings towards the situation. Like it's almost like it's, there's neutral feelings, like there's fuck all feelings around this. It just happened. But what's come out the other side has become more powerful. So Wednesday I'm messaging Nikki in tears and I'm like, I can't cope. I'm going through this. I've also feel like the nausea is starting to ramp up. So that's starting to play a little bit on my physical wellbeing. But mentally, emotionally, and like mindset wise, spirituality, I feel wrong. Like I feel like I said to her, I feel like I'm in two places and I can't pinpoint where I'm meant to be. I feel like I'm neither here nor there. I feel like I shouldn't be in this world, but I'm in this world. I feel like I'm on two different timelines. I feel like things are not merging together. And she said, yes, this is part of your quantum leap and your shift where you feel like you're still stuck in one world, but you're entering another. And this is all part of the transition. So she coached me a lot through this whole entire month. It took me a month to get through this because I knew at the same time I had to book him with Kerry, Kerry White, who I've also had on the show as well. So you can go back and listen to an episode I've got with Kerry. I'll put it in the show notes. If you want to just jump straight in there and you can hear all about what Kerry does and her speciality. She is my healer. She is my energy shaman. That's how I like to sometimes refer to her. She specialized in multidimensional quantum healing, which I've also done some of her training before. And it was going to take me a month to get in with her. Cause she is extremely popular and very booked out. But in that time. And this is when, and I'll have Kerry come on as the third episode in this series to basically highlight how she supported me and what became evident out of my session with her. I felt like I was going mad throughout this whole month. I just felt so disorientated. So. Out of my own body. I struggled. Like that Wednesday I said to Nikki, I can't work, I can't think, I can't function. So I sat on the couch and I painted my toenails. Gave myself a petty, watched TV, took care of myself. Nausea was starting to ramp up in these next few weeks of August and I was really struggling to feel normal, to function, to think, to just operate really. With Avum my nausea hadn't been so bad, it was manageable with like some herbal remedies and I was fine. This is where I had to go to my midwife and say give me the fucking drugs because I can't deal with this. I can't think, I don't have clarity, I can't eat, like food is disgusting, I'm really struggling. As soon as I got the medication I felt like I was normal again. But still had this feeling of neither in this place neither in that world and that What was really becoming evident. And I said to Francois, I can't be in Broome anymore. I think this is a sign that I have to leave Broome. I think Broome and I are done. I think my energy and my time with Broome is done. And I've learned all I've had to learn from Broome. I came to Broome for a reason. I've been here 11 years now and I want to get out. Like I am done. Like I am so done. Like I want to get the hell out of here. Let's just sell the house, sell the house. We just buy a car and we just go somewhere. And we start over again and he's looking at me going, you're not in a good place because well, we could, but I think also let's just, you know, wait for our payout and just see how it all unfolds. And in the meantime, I'm still feeling really, really, really uncomfortable within myself. Years ago, when I was first pregnant with Ava, I must've been like two months in or something like that. I had this, um, unbearable feeling that I couldn't be in the house that we were living in. So we were renting a different house before we bought this one. And I just felt like I couldn't be in any room of the house, but being anywhere else in Broome or around town was fine. And at that time, Kerry established, I did a healing with Kerry, not only to integrate my pregnancy, but to basically she identified that there was a spirit following me and just wanted me to get the hell out of the house. Like it was very unhappy indigenous spirit that had made the promise to look after the land and was just very confused why there was so many people in her land and on her land. And that was a very profound healing I had with Kerry and with that spirit. And once that was cleared, everything was fine. I felt light. I felt fine. Free. I felt normal. But again, I was like, well, maybe there's a spirit. Maybe there's something left over from these people coming into my house. And this is stopping me from feeling like I can't be in any room in my house. I hate the front yard. I hate the backyard. Fresh air is all I feel like I can. Being outside, but even anywhere in Broome feels so uncomfortable, like down at the beach, down at the park, at the shops, at anywhere. Like I just felt energetically unaligned to Broome. And I hadn't had this feeling before. Broome has been my home. And this is the longest that I've lived in one place in my adult life. Usually it's like two or three years here or there, 11 years here. Like, Holy shit. Oh my God. So, Nikki's on one side of me coaching me through the mindset and helping me to regulate my nervous system because so many times I'm messaging her, I'm on a chat with her and I'm like, I've got this anxiety, I feel like I'm not coping very well, I'm struggling to see the process of this and she's really helping me, she's helping me to regulate my nervous system. So meaning to feel less traumatized, less anxious, less stressed, and more calm and in control. And she's also helping me to understand this whole process is part of me stepping into this entrepreneur self, this new identity that has been waiting for me and I'm in the tunnel and I'm about to come out the other side and step into this new identity. Era. When I finally landed with Kerry, I said, Oh my God, this is what happened. And this is where I am right now. I said, I can't be in Broome. I'm done. Like, I feel like I'm neither in this world or that world. I feel like everything is wrong. People in my life are wrong. I'm in the wrong place. I feel like I just can't be here and I'm still struggling with this nausea. What unfolded in my session with Kerry was that, I was actually living a parallel life. I know, like a parallel life. Can you believe that? Like, is that even possible? So I've experienced past lives, generational past lives, different energy healings with different people, including my healer, Kerry, but I've never actually had someone say that was a parallel life. experience that you have just moved through or that I'm going to help you heal. So when Kerry explained it and then led me through the healing, I honestly have to say the relief, the sense of clarity, the sense of freedom and lightness that happened afterwards can only attest that what she sensed and what she tuned into. Was the truth. The one thing I love about Kerry's healings is that she doesn't just sit there silently and does her thing. She'll talk me through the process. So I'm on the journey with her. So I'm experiencing learning and witnessing exactly what she is experiencing and witnessing at the same time and working to heal me on. So we uncovered a lot within that and that there was a version of me. who at some point split from my current true form. And I'll get Kerry to come onto the show, talk more about this because she will do it with so much more ease and clarity than probably what I will give it justice. But basically there was a time when I made a decision and that decision or event split me so that the majority of me who I am, as I am talking to you right now, living the life that I have, which has been pretty bloody amazing, continued on the life that I have experienced. But the small fragment of me, the small fragment that would probably be You could say a 1 percent of me or even less didn't join that decision and went in a different direction or stayed in that moment where the choice was being made to continue as they were rather than me going, yeah, that's not suiting me. I'm going to jump into another way, stayed in that time and The end result was just not great. We decided to call her sad Anna. She has lived the most horrific, most, you know, just not the most pleasant or enjoyable experience of living here in Broome for however long that has been. And she hasn't had a great time of it. It's been really uncomfortable, unpleasant, unenjoyable. And as a result, now this is where it gets a bit trippy, but this is how I see it all. As I said to Kerry, I know people came into my house And they took my keys, but I don't believe they were real. I believe it was energy that came into my house. I don't believe these people were real physical human beings. And what she described was that the actual situation happened in sad Anna's lifetime, but in a much more violent, horrific, traumatic event. But it's also translated in this lifetime, where I have been in a place of a bit more safety, like these people just came to the house and left, whereas I know for a fact, sad, and I confronted these people and she was attacked by them. And I could see that and sense that through the healing that Kerry is translating to me. And as a result, sad Anna has just gone, right, I'm done. I am done. This is the final nail. I am done with broom. Cannot be here. Want to get out. This is shit. I've had the worst experience of my life. I'm out of here. I don't belong here anymore. And because of that, it was playing. into my lifetime, even though I'm on a higher element of myself, I'm at a higher level of consciousness. I'm in a higher vibration than sad Anna. She's living in a lower vibration. She's not happy. She's experiencing things that are holding her down, weighing her down, keeping her stuck. And yet that experience was so significant because she was just wanting to get back to wholeness, to oneness and to herself and to who she truly was, which is me, me, me, as you, I'm talking to you right now. She's wanting to come back, but this experience is so big that it's impacting me now. And that's why I'm feeling like I don't belong. Like I want to get out of town. Like I said to Francois, let's pack up this house and sell it and get the shit and fuck out of here. You know, all of that kind of stuff. That was the explanation of it. And in a sense, what I experienced again, this whole experience for me was the reminder that life is happening for me and not to me. This experience had to happen and it happened in a way for me, the 99. 9999 percent of me Because it could handle it and it was part of me shifting and letting go of something to step into something new Something higher, higher vibration and frequency, a new level, a new era, a new way of being, so to speak So I have to say after this healing with Kerry I literally walked out the room feeling lighter, freer and everything made flippin sense Like I was like, wow, I feel like I'm Back to my normal sense and self, back to my normal self. And over the next few days began to feel lighter, more clarity, I remember messaging Nikki going You wouldn't believe what it was that was also playing out here, but this is it. And without Nikki's help in terms of regulating my nervous system and the subconscious clearing and without Kerry's support and healing and clearing, I don't know where I would be right now. I honestly don't know. And this is the one thing I'm going to ask Kerry when I have her on the show is if I didn't know about energy healing and I didn't know that immediately after this event that I would have to book it with Kerry and I did, How would I know that this was energy or something that wasn't, because it's not normal? How would I know what to do about it? How would I know that this is something energetic and that a doctor wouldn't be able to help me with? Like, would I have gone to a doctor and if I'd said to them, I don't feel like I belong here. I'm neither here nor there. I'm feeling so uncomfortable, so unhappy. What would they have given me? What would they have said? What would they have translated that as? I don't know. And had I said to Francois with so much conviction, we have to leave Broome, like I'm leaving with or without you. Had I left Broome, would I return to my normal self? Would I feel more whole? Would I feel more at peace? Again, I don't know in that respect either. I honestly don't know that answer. Maybe I would have, maybe I would have felt like something had shifted, but maybe I would still have felt some sort of abnormality because sad and I hadn't fully come back to the whole. Which is me. Wow! So it's really, that whole experience and that whole month was intense. Like I had never felt so uncomfortable. I mean granted there was nausea happening with first trimester. That was intense all in itself. Once I got the medication for that, I felt like I was, a little bit more normal. And if anything, I felt more at ease, but I knew it only lasted for so long before everything started happening again. The long and short of it, the police did catch two people that were involved in stealing the car, not the sharpest tools in the shed. They left clues and that's how they got caught. And I was able to identify my car from various pictures and things like that. And I got my payout. So the plan is now in January to go down to Perth to buy a new car because the kind of car that we really, really want is just not going to be available up here as well as the quality of cars up here. I was very lucky when I found ginger, but I, I want something that's not broom related or hasn't been in the Kimberley. And I think overall what I will say about this whole experience is that Ginger was a representation of my life up until now. She was everything that represented this aspect of me coming into Broome, living a life and making decisions and really stepping into who I truly saw myself in that time. So coming to Broome, I'd moved through my own, I guess you could say, shamanic death. I'd had a quantum leap in that time. And now my soul was ready to go for another one, another bigger one. And letting go of ginger was the symbolism of that. And it broke my heart because I love my car. Like I loved it, but I will say this, here's a little something interesting. I remember saying to Nikki in a message recently when I've been getting into my car, when I've been driving around ginger, I've had this feeling that she isn't mine anymore. I have had this feeling that this isn't my car anymore. And it was weird because every time I would get in my car prior to those feelings, I would get into my car and I'd be like, I love my car. I love driving her. I'd have chats to her. I just feel so cool driving her. I loved it. Like I just had this immense sense of love. But these couple of times I did get into my car prior to the theft, I was like, I don't think this is my car anymore. I don't feel like it's my car. Francois and I had talked about the need to upgrade my car eventually and the long and the short of it was even though we'd had a nice costly service on her at 300, 000 Ks, at least she went on an adventure in her best. looking her best, driving her best. Can I just say that? I feel like she was in this Thelma and Louise moment, you know, going down in a blaze of glory. She wanted the one last like moment of freedom. She was like, you're never going to sell me you effers. I've got freedom and choice. I'm going with these dudes. Might be a good choice. But yeah, I just see that what she did was in a way she kind of gifted us something. Because we've now got money to buy a new car, a car that's going to support and service because we want to be able to travel eventually. And we need a better car to tow a bigger caravan, if that's the sense. So sometimes I look back at all these things and think, well, she's gifted us a little legacy within that. And we're able to actually move forwards a little bit more in what we want to do eventually in the next couple of years. We want to go traveling like as a little fam bam in a van travel around Australia or something like that. Just do something. So she's in a way like carving and opening the doorway for that to happen as well as being the symbol of that's the end of that version of Anna because Anna is now this version. I know, wild, wild, wild, wild. How am I feeling now? I feel great. As you'll hear in my conversation with Nikki, like I will be sharing the how her healing and her mindset work has just helped me neutralize all of this. And you'll hear eventually with the recording with Kerry. Her perspective of parallel lives, past lives, quantum leaping, things like that. I will say as well, like I had a realization, I think a few weeks later after all of this kind of resolved that I had to call my power back, but also offer forgiveness and healing between me and and the people that took my car. Now, this was one of these moments where I was like, Oh, you mean to say they did wrong by me, but I'm the one that has to do the work. It's like, come on. But the realization is, and this is the truth. They are not in the vibrational frequency or the consciousness that I am to be able to do this kind of healing work to help lift and shift their vibration in this whole entire circumstance. I don't know these people. I've never seen them. Um, I have no feelings or no thoughts around them at all. Like nothing, like I have nothing. I can't give them anything. I don't have anything, but I knew in this time that if I wanted to make peace for myself and them through the whole situation, this is where I did the upon upon a prayer. This is where I did that meditation specifically because I am the one of the consciousness and the frequency and the vibration that can do the healing and that it's my duty towards us in this little relationship to do the work. And I only hope that it has that ripple out effect into their lives. Maybe it shifts them in some way. Maybe it makes them aware of something in some way. Maybe it gives them that moment of reflection and realization that choices have impacts. And I think that was another thing that came out of this. Like you make a decision about one thing, it impacts not only you, but so many other people around you. So I did that one and then I did my meditation where I called my power back and I got really like ferociously queenly in that meditation. It was brilliant. But I was like, no, you cannot be taking my power from me. Like I'm calling my power back. And with the conclusion of those two meditations, I felt like we're done. Like this is done. So I hope you've enjoyed this story time of what I experienced, what happened, what went down in August, Jorgist, the end of July, full of all of August, because I haven't really shown up a lot in social media over the last few months or being fully present in certain aspects, because. I just haven't had the energy or the desire to, and I think in somewhere I'm still processing a lot. I had been processing a lot of this and letting it all come out and land where it's needed to. Plus pregnancy just as has anchored me back a bit. I don't feel as extroverted as I did with Ava. A lot of my normal kind of activities have sort of wound down. So there hasn't been any pole dancing. So you will not get any pregnancy pole shots. I just haven't had the energy or the desire to do that. And I did do a couple of classes when I was pregnant early on, but going upside down was just way too much for me. Just couldn't, couldn't do it. Whereas with Ava, she was all full on like, yeah, let's do it. Let's do it all the way to 32 weeks. Fun times. Yes, I feel like this pregnancy is very internal, much more quieter and reflective, and that's probably largely due to a lot of the other stuff that's been going on. Anyway, I've talked enough. Amazing. Fun time. So, the next episode coming up is with Nikki Vox, talking all about mindset rewiring, subconscious reprogramming, and, um, nervous system regulation. And then the third one in this trilogy is with Kerry White from multi dimensional quantum healing, where she will talk all about how she supported me in this amazing, incredible journey. Thank you so much for listening. Thank you so much for being part of this amazing program and episode. Love you so much. And until then. Thank you so much for tuning in and listening to today's episode. Please rate and review this podcast so that it can continue to thrive and reach more listeners. I love to know who my listeners are. So please screenshot this episode and tag me on Instagram at Anna F. Hastie. And I look forward to connecting with you in the next episode.